Eyeshadow

Oww. My eyes hurt. I tried using eyeshadow today, my 3rd time ever. Fail, but not as big of a fail as other times. Now I really regret buying eyeshadow and brushes when I don't know how to use them properly. I keep getting particles everywhere and into my eyes. I constantly look like either a panda, raccoon, or just have a black eye. Gosh, none of the other colors really show up well, just the black. I should just stick to eyeliner and blush. Plus when I use eyeliner on the waterline, my eyes water and I'm using pencil, so it isn't waterproof so it just runs. That's why I just put it on the top lid now because it's really annoying. I wonder how girls put makeup on so pro like. Maybe because they started doing this stuff since like middle school and I'm just starting now in college. I still believe you shouldn't wear a lot of makeup, but I like how eyeliner darkens my eyes so I look more alert rather than sleepy eyed. And a little blush (even though my face usually gets easily flushed) adds a warm glow to your face.

My Hair Problems

Like every girl (or almost I believe) we care very deeply for our hair. I remember as a young girl when I would get these horrendous haircuts and would burst into tears after. My mom would always say why are you crying, it's just hair. But hair can really change the way you look. My idols, Arashi, are constantly changing their hairstyles, some make them remarkably handsome, some are just a bit cringe worthy (not that it decreases my love for them, but I always hope that that hairstyle would pass and never come back. I'm quite delighted that Sho has changed back to his "princess" hair. I also really love his 5x10 haircut.

Anyways, in the beginning of the year (well last summer) I got a haircut before going to school. I asked for side bangs (I didn't really get that as I requested) and layers because I have fine hair and I don't like the one length cut. But the lady asked me if I wanted layers on top and I didn't really know what that meant but I said sure and the outcome was that almost every part of my hair was a different length. At first it just looked ridiculous, but as it grew out it looked better. But it's still all different lengths which drives me crazy. So since the semester is almost over, only 3 more weeks!!! Still no job, well it's my fault since I haven't exactly stared looking nor have I made my resume. T.T So I really want to change my hair in a unique manner, not just another layered haircut. I kind of wanted a bob, but I got my weird layered haircut instead. Sigh.

So I have really dark hair, like black, and it's so boring. So I want to try to get lighter brown highlights. I've never dyed my hair or anything of the sort, I am au naturel. But I feel like I really need a change.But I'm a bit scared it won't look good and unlike a bad haircut, you can hide by tying it up or it will eventually grow out. But if you color it and it looks weird, you can't hide that. So I'm worried about that. Also I'm worried about asking my mom. Also I looked online and highlights are expensive!!! So I'm worried about the price. Sigh.