I got a haircut. Trying out side bangs and now its shoulder length. I have really fine hair, so the hairdresser gave me really choppy layers which I believe will grow out really weird and I wanted the side bangs to be chin length, so I could tuck it behind my ears but she cut it above my ears which is really annoying. Oh well. It's a decent haircut and I was in dire need of one.
Scratch that: I hate this haircut. I asked the lady to make sure the layers weren't choppy and guess what: they are really choppy. My sister says my hair looks like its from an anime. Arg.
Saturday, July 21, 2012
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
New Phone Finally and Happy Fourth of July!!!!
Yay!! I got a new phone today, finally after having the same one for 5 years. I had a flip phone by Nokia and since I'm going off to college in like 2 months (less than that actually), I need a new phone so I can keep in touch with my family and friends. So yay, my first smartphone. People (like my mom) were like just get an iphone, but I have an itouch, so I don't see the point in getting an iphone because they are very similar. Plus, the interface gets boring. So I was researching and stumbled across the Nokia Lumia 900, and after that I was hooked. I think the clincher for me was that it came in this brilliant color: cyan (it's a really bright blue). I hate just black and white phones or gray and I know that you can get a case, but I dunno it's just not the same to me.
So it's pretty awesome so far, the sucky thing is that I got the $20 data plan which is like 300 mb which equates to nothing pretty much which is such a ripoff, it should be like $5. So really worried anything I may download like apps will use data and cost extra. Glarg, this sucks. Oh well, love the new phone.
So my sister got a black HTC One X and it seems pretty cool as well, but so complicated. I am technological clumsy and inept, so I like how the windows phone is relatively simple to use. So if you are thinking of getting a smartphone give the Nokia Lumia 900 a whirl it's pretty cool.
So my sister got a black HTC One X and it seems pretty cool as well, but so complicated. I am technological clumsy and inept, so I like how the windows phone is relatively simple to use. So if you are thinking of getting a smartphone give the Nokia Lumia 900 a whirl it's pretty cool.
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Wuthering Heights
So I had to pick a book for my independent reading research paper/ oral presentation and I picked Wuthering Heights because I've never read it before and it's a classic and I thought I should read it before graduating high school. I heard from my sister that the characters are super unlikable and the book can get a bit depressing, so I was going in with the mindset that I would totally hate the book.
Well I wasn't very fond of the first volume which is the more well known and often portrayed in films because I kind of hate Heathcliff and Catherine (the 1st one). They are so evil, selfish, and snotty. Even as grown adults they are still selfish and child like, so I just can't like them. People say that their love is so tragic and romantic and what not. But I mean Catherine was picking money over love. She literally said that she cared about the short term consequences of her marriage to Linton even when Nelly warned her. Like, seriously? And she died from I guess a fit of some short? Like the ultimate temper tantrum killed her?
I actually liked Cathy Linton and Hareton Earshaw's story better. I hated kid Linton. What a brat. Hareton is definitely my favorite character. He tried his best to teach himself how to read and write to impress Cathy and he tried to be a gentleman in her presence though he grew up a boor though it wasn't really his fault. But Cathy can be quite cruel and mean to him which I didn't like at all. But I'm happy they got together in the end.
Another thing that was really annoying to me besides WAY TOO MUCH DRAMA. Is that the kid's names are Linton and Catherine (aka Cathy). Really? It gets even more confusing this way. Also that's kind of gross because they are all like 1st cousins. Yeesh. Some real wicked mutations going to be swimming in that gene pool.
Well the book wasn't that bad it was actually quite good. Now I have a research paper due in like a day and I just finished the book. Now I got to get articles and write a research paper with Noodlebib and think of some kind of presentation. Super stressed though totally still procrastinating.
Banged my leg twice now have bruise. In purple stage.
Also I don't have summer clothes, I'm more of a winter prepared person. Even though I hate the cold (at least you can warm yourself up). I literally melt in the heat. I'm one of those people who get super red in the face really fast as soon as it gets a bit warm. It looks like I am severely dehydrated or something like that. So I only have like these super tight jean knee length pants that hurt when wearing. I believe if I wear them to often I may never have children. Jk. But seriously they hurt when wearing. Might just wear long pants and suffer the heat wave. Though it is becoming relatively cooler over the past few days to high 70's rather than 80's.
Also bought this pak from a dorm thing my college sent to me. The quality for some of this stuff really sucks. My mom thinks its fine while I am seriously disappointed because I begged her to get them and I hate them. Oh well if I get them dirty I don't care.
I want the Nokia Lumia 900 in Cyan. So cool. I have an itouch and ipod classic, so I don't need an iphone because its pretty much the same thing. BORING. I just want a simple, pretty phone that works well. And that's what the Lumia 900 is. Love love love love it. I want to get it.
Watching scary movies during classes. Like I am Legend and Blood Diamond. I hate guns and violence. I like happy cartoons or sappy romcons or funny films or action films that aren't scary. Easily scared person. Spiderman is scary because of the Green Goblin. Yup.
Well I wasn't very fond of the first volume which is the more well known and often portrayed in films because I kind of hate Heathcliff and Catherine (the 1st one). They are so evil, selfish, and snotty. Even as grown adults they are still selfish and child like, so I just can't like them. People say that their love is so tragic and romantic and what not. But I mean Catherine was picking money over love. She literally said that she cared about the short term consequences of her marriage to Linton even when Nelly warned her. Like, seriously? And she died from I guess a fit of some short? Like the ultimate temper tantrum killed her?
I actually liked Cathy Linton and Hareton Earshaw's story better. I hated kid Linton. What a brat. Hareton is definitely my favorite character. He tried his best to teach himself how to read and write to impress Cathy and he tried to be a gentleman in her presence though he grew up a boor though it wasn't really his fault. But Cathy can be quite cruel and mean to him which I didn't like at all. But I'm happy they got together in the end.
Another thing that was really annoying to me besides WAY TOO MUCH DRAMA. Is that the kid's names are Linton and Catherine (aka Cathy). Really? It gets even more confusing this way. Also that's kind of gross because they are all like 1st cousins. Yeesh. Some real wicked mutations going to be swimming in that gene pool.
Well the book wasn't that bad it was actually quite good. Now I have a research paper due in like a day and I just finished the book. Now I got to get articles and write a research paper with Noodlebib and think of some kind of presentation. Super stressed though totally still procrastinating.
Banged my leg twice now have bruise. In purple stage.
Also I don't have summer clothes, I'm more of a winter prepared person. Even though I hate the cold (at least you can warm yourself up). I literally melt in the heat. I'm one of those people who get super red in the face really fast as soon as it gets a bit warm. It looks like I am severely dehydrated or something like that. So I only have like these super tight jean knee length pants that hurt when wearing. I believe if I wear them to often I may never have children. Jk. But seriously they hurt when wearing. Might just wear long pants and suffer the heat wave. Though it is becoming relatively cooler over the past few days to high 70's rather than 80's.
Also bought this pak from a dorm thing my college sent to me. The quality for some of this stuff really sucks. My mom thinks its fine while I am seriously disappointed because I begged her to get them and I hate them. Oh well if I get them dirty I don't care.
I want the Nokia Lumia 900 in Cyan. So cool. I have an itouch and ipod classic, so I don't need an iphone because its pretty much the same thing. BORING. I just want a simple, pretty phone that works well. And that's what the Lumia 900 is. Love love love love it. I want to get it.
Watching scary movies during classes. Like I am Legend and Blood Diamond. I hate guns and violence. I like happy cartoons or sappy romcons or funny films or action films that aren't scary. Easily scared person. Spiderman is scary because of the Green Goblin. Yup.
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Staying Home
I am skipping school (with the permission of my mom) tomorrow for the 1st time. Good reasons though, not arbitrary at all. 1. It is AP week and we are literally not doing anything in any of my classes, so being there feels like a total waste of my time. 2. I have an AP Tuesday that I really haven't studied for, so I need to go study for that. 3. My academic adviser is calling tomorrow to help me create my schedule, so I want to be totally focused for that.
But this is my 1st time not going to school and I feel a bit nervous!! I mean I'm a senior, but I've never cut school or class ever. Not going back to class after an AP is legitimate and not cutting. But still worried on the off chance I might miss something!!
Also there is a fly somewhere in my room and I can not find it (it just disappeared!) Going to have trouble going to sleep knowing its in here with me. EWW!
Also a lot of my shows are getting canceled which sucks. Ex: Are you there, Chelsea?, GCB (it is just starting to get good), Best Friends Forever (eh, it's okay), etc. Sad face. I think I hate my Teenage Daughter is getting canceled as well after they finish showing the rest of the episodes in the summer. I know they aren't the best shows, but they aren't that bad. Sigh. Also so many season finales, now there is nothing to watch.
Oh well, swamped with final quarter projects and presentations (which I hate!!).
Sigh.
But this is my 1st time not going to school and I feel a bit nervous!! I mean I'm a senior, but I've never cut school or class ever. Not going back to class after an AP is legitimate and not cutting. But still worried on the off chance I might miss something!!
Also there is a fly somewhere in my room and I can not find it (it just disappeared!) Going to have trouble going to sleep knowing its in here with me. EWW!
Also a lot of my shows are getting canceled which sucks. Ex: Are you there, Chelsea?, GCB (it is just starting to get good), Best Friends Forever (eh, it's okay), etc. Sad face. I think I hate my Teenage Daughter is getting canceled as well after they finish showing the rest of the episodes in the summer. I know they aren't the best shows, but they aren't that bad. Sigh. Also so many season finales, now there is nothing to watch.
Oh well, swamped with final quarter projects and presentations (which I hate!!).
Sigh.
Saturday, April 28, 2012
Legend of Korra. Yippee!!
One more thing (uncle from Jackie Chan Adventures anyone?) I love Legend of Korra. The backgrounds are so gorgeous. I am simply in love with it. I loved Avatar the last Airbender, but this stuff is pretty good too. I am totally for Makorra. Asami is nice and pretty, but Mako totally belongs to Korra, he just doesn't know it yet!! Can't wait for more episodes. Amon, totally freaks me out. I love probending. And I can't wait to see more development and I want to see some real Avatar action soon and maybe some airbending. You know what I'm talking about, Avatar state and what not. All the spirtual things that Korra just can't seem to pull off the way Aang could, well he was a monk though.
I am unexpectedly good at shuffleboard and a spew of all my troubles and thoughts (sorry I warned you beforehand)
Maybe this was just a one time thing, but I am unexpectedly good at shuffleboard. Not OMG prodigy or anything, but pretty decent. I have to say I attribute my success to watching VS Arashi, where they have this shuffleboard game and also to Spongebob. They used to have this game on Nick, not sure if it's still there or not, but it was like a shuffleboard game. Yup.
When I was playing this in gym, I felt like I was an old person on a cruise ship (stereotype). Sorry if I offended anyone on that, I mean do they even have shuffleboard on cruise ships? Ironically whilst on this topic, my grandparents just came back from a cruise to the Caribbean.
Going off to college soon. Freaking out, yet excited. I want to get out of high school like right now. I kind of finally understand what everyone else has been feeling. You know how people say junior year is your hardest? Well, that is sort of true due to all the AP's and SAT's and starting to research college and stuff and keeping your grades up. But I think Senior year is your hardest because you have to write your college essays, get all the paperwork done, fill out financial aid (which is so long), get your recommendations, visit colleges, research them some more, wait for the acceptances and rejections (cry!!), and then when you finally get in somewhere you're just kind of just stuck in high school.
I am not going to prom. I kind of want to go just for the experience, but tickets are so expensive and also I'm not a dance kind of person. So I would just go and eat and awkwardly be on the sidelines. No thanks. I am planning to do something much productive and fun.
Such a funny commercial
Sad news: I am "fighting" with my friend. Apparently she heard from someone that I was badmouthing her, but I wasn't ! Actually we were all sitting at the same lunch table and I happened to say her name a few times while I was talking to my other friend. And I was only using her as an example and this other person there just told her I badmouthed her when I didn't. So I emailed her to explain myself, not apologize, just to explain and guess what: no reply. Nada! Rude much?
So we haven't spoken for like a month, but we still sit next to each other at lunch, but we just ignore each other and it is horrible! I am told that she is not mad at me, but doesn't want to talk to me. Aren't those the words of unreasonable people? And doesn't that mean she is mad at me? Well now I am mad at her for being so unreasonable. Everyone keeps telling me to be the bigger person and apologize. But I did nothing wrong. I just can't be this mythical bigger person because I feel like I would be doing an injustice to myself and not to mention said friend because she can't just keep doing this to people throughout her whole life, right?
If I had truly wronged her, I would have no qualms about apologizing because then there would be a legit reason, but I seriously did nothing. And it makes no sense to give into, not going to mince words here, -------- (all the things that I want to say, but won't). I mean she does this to her mom all the time (ice her out to get her way) But, she can't always get everything that she wants, and if we can't be friends anymore, so be it, but I would like to give her a lesson that maybe she could learn from, but I seriously doubt she will. This "fight" probably hurts me way more than her. I have been forced to go to the library pretty much everyday as soon as I scarf my lunch down because I can't stand sitting there next to her or across from her. I mean she was one of my closest friends, but she does this way too often, and I am hurting pretty bad now. Though blogging about it and just writing down all the feelings that I have held inside kind of lightens the load.
And I think I have finally come to terms with it. Before I was super uber sad about it, and it would just literally haunt me before I went to sleep, but I believe I have come to terms with it. I can't change someone for who they are and I can't give up my principles on this one, she just doesn't deserve an apology.
I recently read this article on Yahoo where Michelle Obama said something about friendships. "Friendships shouldn't hurt, right? And when they do, you move on from them. You don't stay in relationships or friendships that don't make you feel good." And I think that was the clincher for me. I don't feel good about this friendship anymore, and I really question is it worth saving?
I have had very unsuccessful friendships in the past, and even now I consider myself to not be the best friend ever because I'm not really friendly nor do I really have dynamic conversations anymore. I just seem to have run out of things to talk about. I can literally only talk about school and make awkward small talk. I used to make fun of people who would have those conversations with me, but I turned into one of them. My Goddess, when did I become such a bore? I don't know. I just did. Sigh. I seriously need hobbies, I don't have any. Very sad.
I wish I was more interesting and a better friend, but sadly I'm not. I am totally going to work on that in college though. Actually a lot of my friends are going to the same college which actually kind of sucks, though it's still nice to not be totally alone, but I kind of wanted to radically change, but if they are there I feel like I can't because they would be like, "Hey who are you?" Instead I vow to be a better person in general and more outgoing and work on public speaking and such. Learn to be a leader and what not.
I've always been afraid to change because I am literally so invisible that I thought I would just be forgotten if I changed, but I already am pretty invisible. Once my teacher kept marking me absent because she didn't notice me until like the 3rd day of school and asked me if I was in the wrong class. Embarrassing!! But I'm ready to live for real now. I'm scared of so much and I'm afraid to put myself out there. I've never done anything or go anywhere by myself. But aren't we all? Well, I have to be more independent and get over my fears. Sorry for the really long post, but I've held in a lot, and I just wanted to get it out. There are those days you cry yourself to sleep because you can't say a word of it to anyone because your afraid you will break down and cry. But I just watch my Arashi videos and laugh and smile.
Aiba said something that really struck a chord for me. He said he doesn't smile because things are enjoyable, he always smiles so that something enjoyable will come his way. That is one of the most amazing things I have ever heard. It was just so touching, and I will definitely take his advice.
It's been really cold lately and it's almost May. AP's in a week and I haven't started studying. Face palm. FYI, I added random things just to break up all the writing. Sorry about that.
When I was playing this in gym, I felt like I was an old person on a cruise ship (stereotype). Sorry if I offended anyone on that, I mean do they even have shuffleboard on cruise ships? Ironically whilst on this topic, my grandparents just came back from a cruise to the Caribbean.
Going off to college soon. Freaking out, yet excited. I want to get out of high school like right now. I kind of finally understand what everyone else has been feeling. You know how people say junior year is your hardest? Well, that is sort of true due to all the AP's and SAT's and starting to research college and stuff and keeping your grades up. But I think Senior year is your hardest because you have to write your college essays, get all the paperwork done, fill out financial aid (which is so long), get your recommendations, visit colleges, research them some more, wait for the acceptances and rejections (cry!!), and then when you finally get in somewhere you're just kind of just stuck in high school.
I am not going to prom. I kind of want to go just for the experience, but tickets are so expensive and also I'm not a dance kind of person. So I would just go and eat and awkwardly be on the sidelines. No thanks. I am planning to do something much productive and fun.
Such a funny commercial
Sad news: I am "fighting" with my friend. Apparently she heard from someone that I was badmouthing her, but I wasn't ! Actually we were all sitting at the same lunch table and I happened to say her name a few times while I was talking to my other friend. And I was only using her as an example and this other person there just told her I badmouthed her when I didn't. So I emailed her to explain myself, not apologize, just to explain and guess what: no reply. Nada! Rude much?
So we haven't spoken for like a month, but we still sit next to each other at lunch, but we just ignore each other and it is horrible! I am told that she is not mad at me, but doesn't want to talk to me. Aren't those the words of unreasonable people? And doesn't that mean she is mad at me? Well now I am mad at her for being so unreasonable. Everyone keeps telling me to be the bigger person and apologize. But I did nothing wrong. I just can't be this mythical bigger person because I feel like I would be doing an injustice to myself and not to mention said friend because she can't just keep doing this to people throughout her whole life, right?
If I had truly wronged her, I would have no qualms about apologizing because then there would be a legit reason, but I seriously did nothing. And it makes no sense to give into, not going to mince words here, -------- (all the things that I want to say, but won't). I mean she does this to her mom all the time (ice her out to get her way) But, she can't always get everything that she wants, and if we can't be friends anymore, so be it, but I would like to give her a lesson that maybe she could learn from, but I seriously doubt she will. This "fight" probably hurts me way more than her. I have been forced to go to the library pretty much everyday as soon as I scarf my lunch down because I can't stand sitting there next to her or across from her. I mean she was one of my closest friends, but she does this way too often, and I am hurting pretty bad now. Though blogging about it and just writing down all the feelings that I have held inside kind of lightens the load.
And I think I have finally come to terms with it. Before I was super uber sad about it, and it would just literally haunt me before I went to sleep, but I believe I have come to terms with it. I can't change someone for who they are and I can't give up my principles on this one, she just doesn't deserve an apology.
I recently read this article on Yahoo where Michelle Obama said something about friendships. "Friendships shouldn't hurt, right? And when they do, you move on from them. You don't stay in relationships or friendships that don't make you feel good." And I think that was the clincher for me. I don't feel good about this friendship anymore, and I really question is it worth saving?
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I have had very unsuccessful friendships in the past, and even now I consider myself to not be the best friend ever because I'm not really friendly nor do I really have dynamic conversations anymore. I just seem to have run out of things to talk about. I can literally only talk about school and make awkward small talk. I used to make fun of people who would have those conversations with me, but I turned into one of them. My Goddess, when did I become such a bore? I don't know. I just did. Sigh. I seriously need hobbies, I don't have any. Very sad.
I wish I was more interesting and a better friend, but sadly I'm not. I am totally going to work on that in college though. Actually a lot of my friends are going to the same college which actually kind of sucks, though it's still nice to not be totally alone, but I kind of wanted to radically change, but if they are there I feel like I can't because they would be like, "Hey who are you?" Instead I vow to be a better person in general and more outgoing and work on public speaking and such. Learn to be a leader and what not.
I've always been afraid to change because I am literally so invisible that I thought I would just be forgotten if I changed, but I already am pretty invisible. Once my teacher kept marking me absent because she didn't notice me until like the 3rd day of school and asked me if I was in the wrong class. Embarrassing!! But I'm ready to live for real now. I'm scared of so much and I'm afraid to put myself out there. I've never done anything or go anywhere by myself. But aren't we all? Well, I have to be more independent and get over my fears. Sorry for the really long post, but I've held in a lot, and I just wanted to get it out. There are those days you cry yourself to sleep because you can't say a word of it to anyone because your afraid you will break down and cry. But I just watch my Arashi videos and laugh and smile.
Aiba said something that really struck a chord for me. He said he doesn't smile because things are enjoyable, he always smiles so that something enjoyable will come his way. That is one of the most amazing things I have ever heard. It was just so touching, and I will definitely take his advice.
It's been really cold lately and it's almost May. AP's in a week and I haven't started studying. Face palm. FYI, I added random things just to break up all the writing. Sorry about that.
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Hunger Games
Just watched the Hunger Games. It was hmmm. Okay. It wasn't horrible, but it wasn't super awesome either. The whole time I felt like something was missing, besides some of the plot, which is inevitable. I had to bring my brother and his friend along with my sisters, and the movie is PG-13 for a reason, they were giggling and talking the whole entire time whilst munching popcorn really loudly! So annoying.
The movie had a few really good moments, but it was very rushed. The characters didn't have enough time to develop, and Gale literally had maybe 10 min. screen time. Josh Hutcherson was actually a pretty good Peeta and Jennifer Lawerence was a pretty good Katniss, but the movie felt a bit empty. It was missing the small details that gave it life, life Katniss' love for the lamb stew, the girl without the tongue, the mutated dogs with the dead tributes, the bread from District 11, etc. That I believe would have made it a bit better. Also I didn't hear many songs in the movie, like the Taylor Swift one. I really liked the training scenes though, the girl who threw the knives was pretty awesome, and Peeta's camoflauge was so realistic-freaky!
The movie had a few really good moments, but it was very rushed. The characters didn't have enough time to develop, and Gale literally had maybe 10 min. screen time. Josh Hutcherson was actually a pretty good Peeta and Jennifer Lawerence was a pretty good Katniss, but the movie felt a bit empty. It was missing the small details that gave it life, life Katniss' love for the lamb stew, the girl without the tongue, the mutated dogs with the dead tributes, the bread from District 11, etc. That I believe would have made it a bit better. Also I didn't hear many songs in the movie, like the Taylor Swift one. I really liked the training scenes though, the girl who threw the knives was pretty awesome, and Peeta's camoflauge was so realistic-freaky!
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