Speech

Douglas H. Everett once said “There are some people, who live in a dream world, and there are some who face reality; and then there are those who turn one into the other.” I want to be one of those people. I have never had a future aspiration, but I have had many unrealistic dreams. I wasn’t the kid who wanted to be the doctor or the firefighter when I was 5. Even now, I haven’t a clue on what I want to do.

But from my avid devotion to televised competition shows I have jumped from occupation to occupation, in my dreams of course. So at a time, I have dreamt of being a chef, interior designer, restaurateur, writer, etc. But soon I tire of such fantasies, and I return to clueless me. Not a clue on what to do.

This past week I have been trying to borrow the dreams of others for this competition, sadly this is what I resorted to, but I also found out that others are just as unsure as me, though one did say she would like to be able to fly, that would be nice, except I’m terrified of heights so I guess not.

Though it isn’t a good thing to not know what you want to do, it isn’t surprising to find out that others are just as clueless as me because this time period as defined by Erikson is Identity vs. Role Confusion. So teenagers like me are pretty much meant to be this way. We don’t know what we want to do, how to get there, so we just keep trying new things out to find our true selves.

So if the world is supposedly going to end today, than my dream has to be that I it doesn’t. And as Lewis Carroll once said, “If you don’t know where you’re going, any road will get you there.”  

Yup this was the speech and guess what, my mom is making me go to the semi finals!!!! ARG! I don't want to! I hope I suck so bad that they won't let me go to the finals.

Yup the fight continues. I found out a few days ago that the real reason she is mad at my sister (and me?) is because she wants to beat this record that she has set when she gives her mom the silent treatment. I feel bad for her mom all the time. Yup. Which is a really spoiled kid move and like who does that?? I now think that this friendship cannot be saved. Thank Goddess I'm going to college soon. I already have this list of people that I avoid because of ruined friendships. Wow, I'm really not a people person. Darn now I have to return her Wii games to her.

Got a Haircut!

Hmm... I have been trying to grow my hair out because I always wanted like waist long hair, and I was getting like almost halfway there, but my mom decided we should all get a haircut so HACK goes all my hard work. Arg. It's a bit short now and I got my hair straightened for the 1st time (and hopefully last) because straightening your hair is BAD for you! Today was actually really hot for once after a whole week of rain, this actually sucks for me because I decided to wear like 3 layers of clothing. I was sweaty and itchy and I have a cold/allergy??

My mom made me go to a speech contest and the theme was, "My Dream" Gosh, what a horrible prompt. So I'm a sad sad person, because I don't have a dream. So my speech basically sucked, really bad. I was like shaking the whole time while I read off the paper. If I remember, I'll retype it up and show the world my suckiness. I sure golly hope the world doesn't end today. (I mentioned that in my speech as my dream: sad) But hey, I had to say something!

The fight continues between my sister and BFF. They still refuse to make up. It's been almost a week and pure torture. It's like deadly silence at lunch, you know how awkwardly horrible that is??????????

Got published in a poetry contest, wonder if I should buy the book (costs like $25) hmm...

WOULD YOU RATHER? 
See the world end today or Not?

(Easy Question... I hope.)

Today's a depressing day

My sister and my BFF are fighting. Plus today is a dreary, rainy day. They are fighting because my BFF's sister called my sister a weebo: look it up. So my sister got really angry and stormed off because she's not one. And now my BFF is mad at her too for some reason as well. Arg. And now I'm stuck in the middle, and I feel so depressed. I can't seem to get them to make up. I will never be a foreign diplomat because I might cause WWIII.

WOULD YOU RATHER? 
Live in a place that never rains or Live in a place that always rains?

Even #'s

Oh, man. I wish I wasn't so OCD about everything. I hate crooked things and odd #'s. Even #'s rule esp. the number 4!!!!!!!!!!!! Uh, yup that's all I wanted to say.

YES!!

Finally, AP week is DONE! I want summer to come. Watching House MD, right now. Really behind on this season. Also, just saw the Prom Queen episode of Glee. Eh. Kind of knew the ending because of spoilers.

WOULD YOU RATHER? 
Be House from House MD or Barney Stinson from How I met your Mother?

What a cutie! Don't ya think? >.< Look at that smile. Kya.

SHAKE FIST!

It's late, 1 am. My brain is deprived of Oxygen, and AP in 2 days, yeah, studying not going so great. Plus SAT's on Saturday, and that too I have procrastinated! The big problem is that my sister and I have signed up for the June SAT 2's and ACT's . But she idiotically signed up for the SAT 1's by accident. So now her mistake is causing me stress. Seriously, my stomach is all in knots for her and my heart is racing and I feel worried. Plus these tests are expensive, so I feel guilty for her. Because their is a cost to change the test from 1 to 2. So I just feel worried!!! ARG. Going to sleep. Can't even do a would you rather.

1 down, OMG there's more?

1st AP down, 2 more to go. One on Friday, still not done learning the course and haven't begun to review yet. I'm so screwed. For this one, I crammed this morning for 3 hours, so I think I basically failed. So if I get a 5 (which I doubt) it will be a MIRACLE! SAT's Saturday, and guess what I procrastinated... again. So... worried about that. 2nd time taking it too, not good. Plus I got my ACT scores back, and I idiotically sent them to colleges for some reason, I don't know why I thought you had to put them in. I thought you could choose whether or not you want to send them later. And now I can't cancel them. So now I seriously wonder if I'm going to be able to get into college. AARG! And of course more procrastination today, I was watching Two Weeks Notice with Sandra Bullock and Hugh Grant. It was actually pretty good.

WOULD YOU RATHER? 
Amputate your arm by yourself with no anesthesia or be stuck in between two cliffs and have your arm ripped from your shoulder?

Yeah, I'm feeling a bit sad/ depressed today, so the would you rather was a bit brutal. Sorry, I'll try for a happier one next time... If I remember.