Why am I such a fail person? Happy New Years!!!!

I can't believe out of all of the 11 schools I am applying to I only really want to go to 2. That is sad and they are my reaches. Do I suck at choosing schools or what? I can only hope to transfer. I was researching one of the schools I applied to and people hate it there. I mean I sent my scores in, so I pretty much have to at least apply. It is pure torture writing the essay. My essay is so bad it's laughable. I'm only trying to fix it for my pride as a writer. But it's too hard to write false nice things about somewhere I don't want to go.

I literally feel sick to my stomach. What a great way to ring in the new year. Arg. Did you guys notice I say this often. Yes. Arg!! I can only hope for a miracle I will get into one of the those two schools. Please!!!!

Well, I'm going to power through this all. I may sound extremely pathetic right now, but it's because I feel that way. But in 9 minutes (before midnight) I am going to release all this negativity and leave it behind in 2011. I hope you all have a wonderful 2012. And to all people applying to college. Research carefully!

Also Arashi was so cute at Kouhaku. (spelling that wrong) Their performance really made me feel better and it affirmed my love for them. Thanks Arashi for the smiles and hard work. Good luck in 2012. You'll have my continued support.

Still Cramming

Still cramming college applications just 2 days before the deadline. Sad. Anyways, I am worried that my SAT scores have not been sent yet, and if they'll get there in time. Worried!!!! I mean I sent some on the 15th and the 23rd. So I hope they get processed soon.

My brain hurts.

I haven't done my winter break HW yet.

I got an ipod touch (8GB). It's really just for games. I already have an ipod classic (160GB). They are totally worth it and in my opinion better than ipod touches. They hold more (bang for your buck), can hold videos and songs (unlike my old ipod nano, though I liked that those had colors unlike the classics), so if you want an ipod that can last for a while get the classic. I have only 16GB of stuff from just 1 year, so that's out of probably like 150GB.

Need to finish an application tonight, and 2-3 tomorrow, and then I am done. And the wait begins. Oh, April. Or March. I am so scared I will get rejected from my safety schools. Is that sad or what? Because I applied rolling admission and still no reply a month later. I want to get accepted somewhere. So jealous of the people who have been accepted.

Sigh, back to racking my brain and watching videos on YouTube for Why _______? I kind of hate this question. I really want to be creative about it, but it's such a boring and generic question.

  This is such a cute Wong Fu Video. Though the ending    totally freaks me out. Gosh, Ted is so cute selling black market awkward animals. Wong Fu for Life. Aww.

Happy Birthday Aiba-chan!!

Happy 29th Birthday to Aiba from Arashi. Yes, his birthday is December 24th which is Christmas Eve. I feel bad that he never has really had a B-day party because they just put his Birthday and Christmas together. Aww, I hope he continues to be his awesome self and continue to inspire others with his smiles, laughs, and Aibakaness. Ahh, Masaki.com!!!!

Aiba Bye Bye

Deferred

Ahh, I just found out that I got deferred  from the only EA school I applied to. Mixed feelings. I feel like a lot of people got deferred, more so than rejected which just means more competition. Sigh. I really just wanted to get in somewhere to get a sense of security. Man, my stats weren't so great and looking at College Confidential shot my confidence (whatever is left of it) into the ground. Like, these people got deferred with near perfect SAT's and a million of extracurricular activities? At least I didn't get rejected (surprisingly-maybe they really liked my essays?) though now the torture like wait for 4 months for my decision begins along with my other schools. If I get rejected from all of them I will be seriously crushed. Please let me get in somewhere!!!!

I don't suck as much as I thought

Today, When I stepped into the cafeteria and saw the bake sale to my surprise and absolute delight, only 2 of my cookie cake slices were left, and as I was on line I saw people buy the last 2 pieces. I thought no one would buy it, super happy. Maybe because it was a bit more original than everyone else. The rest of the things were just like chocolate chip cookies-BORING.

So I take back my last post, I don't suck that much. Though I still kind of do. Go Cookie Cake! Though it isn't a real one. Just cookie dough in a cake pan.

I suck at Baking

I had to make something home made for a club bake sale. But I suck at baking a lot of the times, like I end up burning them or something goes wrong. Even though I followed the instructions on the box. Well I made cookie cake- which for me is cookie dough mix thrown into a round cake pan and baked. I've made it like twice before and it usually turns out okay. But this one turned out really bad. The taste is fine but it was seriously soft and when I cut it, it was all mushy. So I tried to bake it for longer, which ended up burning the bottom. Thus it is ugly snicker-doodle cookie cake. Oh, well. I need club credit. Never baking again for bake sales. I will just buy like I usually do. I wonder if anyone will buy it? Poor sucker. Plus I only had 8 pieces that were really small. Maybe, it only works for chocolate chip, that's what I usually use.

Stuffed

Went to a Japanese Buffet. Stuffed myself silly. So full it hurts. You know how you're supposed to eat until you are 3/4 full because the message hasn't gotten to your brain that you are full, so even though you don't feel full you actually are, well today I felt 100% full, so I must have been 125% stuffed!!!! Plus it was really expensive (and I went with my entire family), and the food was only so-so.

Stomach is so full. >.<

Want new Background!

I really like my blog background, it's whimsically cute I guess, but I want a more personalized one. I'm sooo un-tech savvy, so I'm pretty clueless about these things. I've seen other peoples' blogs and their all personalized and cool. I want one too! Somebody tell me how!!!!! Please?

Recently I have been going to sleep around 1 am or later and I used to go to sleep at like 11:30 pm latest last year. Do you think it's senior-itis? You know how hard it is to go to bed at 11:30 pm when you start going to bed way later? Really hard. I've gotten these horrendous dark bags under my eyes! Aarg!

Gah, 5 days!

5 days until I know my early action decision to ... Not saying. I mean I don't really really want to go there, but I want the safety of knowing that I have a good school to go to if I get rejected from my top school. I actually haven't applied there yet (still haven't done the supplement which is the usual Why do you want to come to ____?) which you may think is strange if it is my top school I would have applied early, but I have changed my top school like 6 times, so I didn't want to be too committed because this certain school only had early decision.

My friend who had applied to ... fine I'll say it ...Cornell got deferred , but at least she can apply again. Another girl from my school also got deferred from Cornell. And this really smart (all rounder) in my school got rejected from Columbia or so I hear. I know very little about these decisions because I  (big shocker) don't have a Facebook or Twitter. Nope (though I do have this blog which no one reads and it is pretty anonymous though if one of my friends stumbled upon it they would totally know it's me, so I hope they don't) I'm pretty uninterested in communicating with others. Though I am contemplating on whether or not I should make a Facebook just to contact with my buddies when I go to college. Hmm...

My sister is always using the excuse that I am anti-social to my mom so I have to go places with her that I don't want to. Anti-social is a misnomer (which I learned in AP Psych). I'm am just an introvert who likes chilling at home a lot more than going out (though I do like going out it takes up a lot of energy and can just seem bothersome) Sorry it's the truth!

Man, my desk lamp by my computer is broken, so I'm typing in the semi-dark (I have a different light on across the room, but it's way too dark!) I'm so irritated, the darkness makes my eyes hurt and I have really bad eyesight. I should really go to sleep. Got to finish my apps, and I have a whole heck of amount of textbook homework to read and take notes on and I have to finish reading Moby Dick (90 pages to go plus a really thick packet of questions to go with it). Moby Dick is seriously about a dude obsessed about killing a whale that still has not appeared in person. Yes, I know it has so much more than that and a lot of different themes and other things, but it can just be very boring to me not to mention very long!!!!!! Luckily the chapters are short and my teacher cut a few of the really boring and irrelevant stories like the ones about whale body parts and etc.

Spazzing!!!! With Happiness!

Gosh I'm so excited! Do you want to know why???? Because I was just perusing Wikipedia and apparently they are making some kind of spin off of Avatar the Last Airbender, definitely one of the best animated TV shows ever, and I was so sad when it ended. I loved it so much I even went to see the movie (which pretty much sucked as expected) even though I knew I was pretty much throwing away 10 bucks. The only cool thing about the movie was the CGI for the bending. The cast was totally messed up. The Cast should have been predominately Asian, and also they couldn't even say the characters names right. Hullo? Watch the TV show so you know! I mean the guy from Twilight who plays Jasper, Jackson Rathborne, played Sokka. I mean seriously?  Come on!

But excited for this spin-off. So exciting! Go read: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Avatar:_The_Legend_of_Korra

The series is called The Last Airbender: The Legend of Korra!!!!!!!

Spazzing with happiness. Can't wait until it comes out in 2012.

The movie New Year's Eve is coming out soon. It actually looks quite interesting maybe because I see Lea Michelle from Glee. I hated Valentines' Day because it was so cheesy and boring. Hope this one isn't like that. Plus I don't like how like there are like 20 all stars. Too much!

 This week's Glee episode was pretty good. Sam came back! I loved the song at the end, We are Young. Awesome. Didn't really like New Directions songs for sectionals (why did they sing 3?) So I thought the Troubletones should have won, but I'm happy New Directions won and how everyone is all together again. Give Damian lines, I mean seriously Lindsay has more lines than him. Gerber baby. .... Laugh.

Christmas episode next! Love Love New Girl, though this week's episode was a bit awkward... Last Man Standing is good too, ahh Tim Allen. Boyd is sooo cute. Doesn't make sense how the brunette girl (forgot her name, the eldest daughter) and Nick Jonas ( playing the guy who impregnated her) made a blonde little boy. Weird. Oh, well he is too cute!

Watching I Hate My Teenager daughter, and it is well... sub-par, but I will still watch it.
X-Factor is so boring now, I don't know any of the songs and most of them really aren't that good. I actually liked watching  the auditions (even the bad ones b/c they are funny) then the show right now. All the performances have way too many lights and things like that. I hope Melanie wins b/c her voice is good. Everyone else is kind of eh...

Also watching Suburgatory (hmmm, it's interesting). How I met your Mother (this week's episode was quite sad in its own way). Can't wait for The Big Bang Theory tomorrow. Yes I watch a lot of TV, well technically I don't actually watch it on TV, I watch it online. Yup, I actually don't have time to watch this stuff, but I do anyway!!!! I am such a big procrastinator. Sigh. Hart of Dixie is Awesome. ZADE! Hmm, I think that's just about all I watch.

Wait!

The Next Iron Chef... I want either Chef Falkner or Chef Zakarian to win. Also I watch The Amazing Race. Go Ernie and Cindy (too bad the snowboarders Andy and Tommy got out) or Jeremy and Sandy. I don't really like Marcus and Amani because I think they only survived so far because of luck, so I don't really want them to win.

Seriously, Glee? (How could you!)

Damian won a 7-episode arc. But the only true episode he has had a decent amount of lines and a song or two was the 1st one that he appeared in. All the other episodes he has been in has been like just a pan to his face or 1 line. Does this count as a part of the 7 episodes? Because if it does then he got totally ripped off because he is just making cameos. I saw that he has some sort of development in plot in the Christmas Episode. But seriously, Glee writers give him more lines and more songs!!!!

I also wonder when are they going to introduce Sam and Alex? I saw that Lindsay will be appearing in the next episode. I thought the I Kissed a Girl episode was pretty good. Though it was a bit predictable and sad that Santana's Grandma didn't accept her. Sam is coming back!! Though it's so weird the whole moving away and back and that short (very short) stint with Mercedes barely even made sense. They left like a total cliffhanger, and then totally ended that possible love story. At least in what I saw of next episodes preview that Sam (Chord) cut his hair. I sure wish they'd fix Damian's hair to normal.

I don't like Sebastian at all. He creeps me out soooo much. Though one of my friends does like him, I don't.
I see that he would be appearing soon. Arg. Oh, well Wikipedia has failed me before with some misinformation. Sigh. Though I guess it can be pretty reliable most of the time.