Why am I such a fail person? Happy New Years!!!!

I can't believe out of all of the 11 schools I am applying to I only really want to go to 2. That is sad and they are my reaches. Do I suck at choosing schools or what? I can only hope to transfer. I was researching one of the schools I applied to and people hate it there. I mean I sent my scores in, so I pretty much have to at least apply. It is pure torture writing the essay. My essay is so bad it's laughable. I'm only trying to fix it for my pride as a writer. But it's too hard to write false nice things about somewhere I don't want to go.

I literally feel sick to my stomach. What a great way to ring in the new year. Arg. Did you guys notice I say this often. Yes. Arg!! I can only hope for a miracle I will get into one of the those two schools. Please!!!!

Well, I'm going to power through this all. I may sound extremely pathetic right now, but it's because I feel that way. But in 9 minutes (before midnight) I am going to release all this negativity and leave it behind in 2011. I hope you all have a wonderful 2012. And to all people applying to college. Research carefully!

Also Arashi was so cute at Kouhaku. (spelling that wrong) Their performance really made me feel better and it affirmed my love for them. Thanks Arashi for the smiles and hard work. Good luck in 2012. You'll have my continued support.

Still Cramming

Still cramming college applications just 2 days before the deadline. Sad. Anyways, I am worried that my SAT scores have not been sent yet, and if they'll get there in time. Worried!!!! I mean I sent some on the 15th and the 23rd. So I hope they get processed soon.

My brain hurts.

I haven't done my winter break HW yet.

I got an ipod touch (8GB). It's really just for games. I already have an ipod classic (160GB). They are totally worth it and in my opinion better than ipod touches. They hold more (bang for your buck), can hold videos and songs (unlike my old ipod nano, though I liked that those had colors unlike the classics), so if you want an ipod that can last for a while get the classic. I have only 16GB of stuff from just 1 year, so that's out of probably like 150GB.

Need to finish an application tonight, and 2-3 tomorrow, and then I am done. And the wait begins. Oh, April. Or March. I am so scared I will get rejected from my safety schools. Is that sad or what? Because I applied rolling admission and still no reply a month later. I want to get accepted somewhere. So jealous of the people who have been accepted.

Sigh, back to racking my brain and watching videos on YouTube for Why _______? I kind of hate this question. I really want to be creative about it, but it's such a boring and generic question.

  This is such a cute Wong Fu Video. Though the ending    totally freaks me out. Gosh, Ted is so cute selling black market awkward animals. Wong Fu for Life. Aww.

Happy Birthday Aiba-chan!!

Happy 29th Birthday to Aiba from Arashi. Yes, his birthday is December 24th which is Christmas Eve. I feel bad that he never has really had a B-day party because they just put his Birthday and Christmas together. Aww, I hope he continues to be his awesome self and continue to inspire others with his smiles, laughs, and Aibakaness. Ahh, Masaki.com!!!!

Aiba Bye Bye

Deferred

Ahh, I just found out that I got deferred  from the only EA school I applied to. Mixed feelings. I feel like a lot of people got deferred, more so than rejected which just means more competition. Sigh. I really just wanted to get in somewhere to get a sense of security. Man, my stats weren't so great and looking at College Confidential shot my confidence (whatever is left of it) into the ground. Like, these people got deferred with near perfect SAT's and a million of extracurricular activities? At least I didn't get rejected (surprisingly-maybe they really liked my essays?) though now the torture like wait for 4 months for my decision begins along with my other schools. If I get rejected from all of them I will be seriously crushed. Please let me get in somewhere!!!!

I don't suck as much as I thought

Today, When I stepped into the cafeteria and saw the bake sale to my surprise and absolute delight, only 2 of my cookie cake slices were left, and as I was on line I saw people buy the last 2 pieces. I thought no one would buy it, super happy. Maybe because it was a bit more original than everyone else. The rest of the things were just like chocolate chip cookies-BORING.

So I take back my last post, I don't suck that much. Though I still kind of do. Go Cookie Cake! Though it isn't a real one. Just cookie dough in a cake pan.

I suck at Baking

I had to make something home made for a club bake sale. But I suck at baking a lot of the times, like I end up burning them or something goes wrong. Even though I followed the instructions on the box. Well I made cookie cake- which for me is cookie dough mix thrown into a round cake pan and baked. I've made it like twice before and it usually turns out okay. But this one turned out really bad. The taste is fine but it was seriously soft and when I cut it, it was all mushy. So I tried to bake it for longer, which ended up burning the bottom. Thus it is ugly snicker-doodle cookie cake. Oh, well. I need club credit. Never baking again for bake sales. I will just buy like I usually do. I wonder if anyone will buy it? Poor sucker. Plus I only had 8 pieces that were really small. Maybe, it only works for chocolate chip, that's what I usually use.

Stuffed

Went to a Japanese Buffet. Stuffed myself silly. So full it hurts. You know how you're supposed to eat until you are 3/4 full because the message hasn't gotten to your brain that you are full, so even though you don't feel full you actually are, well today I felt 100% full, so I must have been 125% stuffed!!!! Plus it was really expensive (and I went with my entire family), and the food was only so-so.

Stomach is so full. >.<